superhero tao ( ¤̴̶̷̤́ ‧̫̮ ¤̴̶̷̤̀ )
that sinful body wave…
can’t wait for the day lee taemin talks back to the people who are making fun of him for having a feminine appearance and just casually lean over the table with a smug look, 'I'm going to fuck you up so bad you wont be able to walk for a week'
jongin telling fans to shield themselves from the rain (he was the last person to leave the stage because he was too busy running around, telling fans to use an umbrella or whatever they could so they wouldn’t get wet. he also slipped (almost fell) twice because the stage was so slippery and wet) ©
no. actually yoona’s mom left her when she was young. though it’s still a standing rumor cause yoona never really talked about her mom and no one really knows the reason behind it - it could have been between her mom and dad, a misunderstanding, a divorce. but we could conclude that yoona never really had a motherly figure, someone she could look up to. and i guess that’s the reason why i ship her so much, why yoonaddicts ship her. she’s just so strong, i mean it’s easy to give up and break down knowing how your mom - the one who was supposed to never leave your side - abandon you. but no, she didn’t give in, she fought, and she fought hard not to be brought down by it and pushed herself harder. but sometimes, whenever soshi sings dear mom,
she always has this raw emotion in her eyes. like she’s having an internal battle with herself. the way her eyes would have this cold, emotionless look, the way she sings hesitantly, the way she fights back her tears. because she’s trying to be indifferent, trying not to care. and she’s holding back the tears not because she doesn’t want the fans to see her, but because she wants to prove to herself and to everyone else that she isn’t going to let her mom affect her like that. like there’s no need to cry for her when her mom initially left her. however, i feel so sad knowing that because of it, she has one of the lowest self-esteems. she has these insecurities that are almost always overlooked and she may be hiding in her perfect little shell, behind the wall she always puts up but at the end of the day, she’s still im yoona with her insecurities plaguing her. and maybe that’s the reason why she tries so hard to please everyone, tries hard not to show how she’s affected by negative comments, because she’s scared that one day, one way or another, they’ll all abandon her like her mom did. i love how she turned out to be strong and mature, but sometimes i wish i could just hug her and say that it’s okay to not be perfect, to cry and be vulnerable at times, to put her walls down, to not keep it all in, to leave all her insecurites behind, that it’s better to not be that someone people expect her to be because not one person who loves her would abandon her. not the other members, not her family, and not the fans who look up to her.
if u send me an ask complimenting me or telling me that u like my blog i will smile for like 38 hours straight